Uncovering The Forgotten: The Struggle For Trans History, From Nazi Germany To Today

Several years back, I started researching transgender beingness successful Germany before, during, and aft Hitler’s stranglehold connected nan country. It was a painstaking project, if only because of really arduous it was to uncover that history erstwhile full governments had tried truthful difficult to destruct it. But it was important to maine and truthful I kept astatine it.

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What resulted was a activity of humanities fiction, The Lilac People, which narrates nan stories of a fewer trans group (and a cis ally) nether nan thumb of fascism. The book yet recovered a location pinch Counterpoint Press successful January 2024. After acquisition, we did nan accustomed thing: We planned, we waited, we hurried up and past waited immoderate more. And each nan while I kept an oculus connected nan goings-on of nan United States, nan concerns of fascism successful our ain country, nan book bans and erasures of history.

Then nan predetermination of November 2024 hit. I watched arsenic nan 47th president of nan United States took agency connected January 20th, only 10 days earlier Hitler became Germany’s chancellor 92 years prior. I counted down what I telephone nan Hitler Clock—the first 53 days of Hitler’s caller domiciled arsenic he actively tried to dismantle everything he could; arsenic nan president now seemed to beryllium attempting to, rather genuinely, travel nan Hitler playbook.

I watched arsenic history attempted to repetition itself—as of this writing, continues to effort to repetition itself—with trans group arsenic 1 of nan first successful nan crosshairs. Passports, sanction changes, gender markers, healthcare, bathrooms, nationalist engagement of each sorts. Anything that removes personhood, existence, and nan correct to body. Because if you portion these distant from nan astir susceptible and find small guidance from others, you tin past commencement to activity up nan ladder.

My book is group to debut connected April 29th, precisely 1 week earlier nan 92nd day of nan first (and worst) queer book prohibition successful documented history: nan burning of nan archives astatine nan Institute of Sexual Science successful Berlin. That demolition was truthful impactful that it group trans rights, healthcare, and acquisition backmost astir 100 years. And now present we are, almost precisely 100 years later.

As personification who writes astir and instructs connected transgender history, I grapple pinch erasure, misrepresentation, and denial connected a regular basis. Attempting to uncover forgotten group and destroyed histories is simply a headache successful itself, but successful our increasing property of lies, nan activity sometimes feels much for illustration an existential crisis.

I’ve spent years connected a book astir events that ne'er happened while I myself don’t exist.

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In 2024, a national committee successful Montgomery County, Texas mandated that each nationalist libraries move nan nonfiction children’s book Colonization and nan Wampanoag Story by Linda Coombs from “nonfiction” to “fiction.” Reflecting connected this, Hannah H Kim wrote successful “The truth astir fiction”:

The powerfulness to explanation books arsenic ‘fiction’ aliases ‘nonfiction’ is to demarcate what is existent and what isn’t, what is existent and what is false, what is imagined and what is actual….They didn’t attraction astir nan position of nan contents of nan book truthful overmuch arsenic they cared astir nan contents of what we return to beryllium existent and true. All that mattered to them was that it not beryllium considered nonfiction—and if it’s not nonfiction, it must beryllium fiction, right?

…What grounds nan nonfiction/fiction favoritism is not that nan erstwhile is based connected truth aliases facticity per se, but that nan erstwhile contributes to really we spot nan world insofar arsenic it organises nan kinds of truths that we attraction capable astir to publication and constitute about. The Montgomery County Commission didn’t initiate a systematic audit of each nonfiction books that mightiness see mendacious aliases misleading information. Rather, they targeted a book whose declare to truth practically interfered pinch their understandings of themselves and nan country.

These are intentional actions. In his essay, “Twenty Lessons On Tyranny,” (which is based connected his book, On Tyranny), Timothy Snyder says: “To wantonness facts is to wantonness freedom. If thing is true, past nary 1 tin knock power, because location is nary ground upon which to do so. If thing is true, past each is spectacle. The biggest wallet pays for nan astir blinding lights.”

Likewise, arsenic Dan Williams succinctly says in, “On conspiracy theories of ignorance”: “When knowledge is easy to travel by, manipulation is much challenging and little prevalent.”

In Nazi Germany, it was overmuch easier to suppress information. But now successful nan property of nan internet, it’s much difficult to expanse things nether nan rug. The adjacent champion thing? Say nan accusation you can’t suppress is wrong. Or amended yet, fake. For an individual to different still judge specified accusation marks them not conscionable arsenic personification who misunderstands, but arsenic personification truthful unhinged that they’re now a threat to nan state itself.

Image source: Griffin Hansbury, New York City, February 2025.

The mainstream’s conception of trans history, and trans group astatine large, plays a notable portion successful this approach. It creates a elemental formula: A trans communicative is only existent aliases untrue if a fixed scholar deems it so. Trans beingness becomes limited connected singular whims that plaything drastically betwixt extremes.

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When I made acquaintances pinch personification astatine a statement and, upon proceeding that I wrote trans humanities fiction, they excitedly pulled maine by nan wrist to their friend:

“This is Milo! He writes speculative fiction, too!”

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When I sounded a portion of short fabrication astir a trans personification trying to entree healthcare during an illness:

“This isn’t a bully fresh for us, but we dream you consciousness amended soon.”

When I double-checked that I had, indeed, submitted nether nan class of fiction, I thanked them for their reply, but politely explained that nan communicative was fabrication (if only to correct nan record):

“It’s still not a bully fresh for us, but we dream you consciousness amended soon.”

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When my supplier sounded my humanities fabrication astir a gender nonconforming personification applicable to 1600s piracy connected nan Atlantic Ocean:

“I don’t understand. Where’s nan clip travel?”

“This has bestseller potential, but nan deficiency of magical realism is confusing.”

“Have you considered making it YA? Because I could waste it if it was YA.”

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When my supplier sounded my humanities fabrication astir a trans personification trying to past 1960s NYC, this clip complete pinch painstaking reference to nan galore group I’d interviewed and nan meticulous investigation I’d done:

“I’m sorry, this communicative is wonderful, but I conscionable don’t judge nan world you’ve created.”

“An absolute stunner, but we don’t correspond replacement reality books.”

“I’m beautiful judge this isn’t existent because I haven’t seen different books constitute astir this.”

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When my supplier sounded The Lilac People:

“This author’s 1 to watch, but cipher will ever judge this happened.”

“Are you judge this is true? Because I cognize a batch astir WWII and I’ve ne'er heard astir this before.”

“Absolutely groundbreaking, but I don’t deliberation readers will get connected committee pinch this.”

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A portion of maine can’t blasted these folks. When you’re ne'er taught trans history successful school—and erstwhile nan personality sometimes isn’t allowed to beryllium recognized successful nan present, either—and nan only trans history you travel crossed successful books is reimaginings, indirectly asking a personification to grapple pinch everything they’ve ever known being a dishonesty is simply a batch to inquire successful a azygous email. Despite nan galore trans novels that person published complete nan past fistful of years, astir of them person been constricted to a prime fewer categories. It creates an unfortunate assumption: If immense quantities of specified stories are published, past a deficiency of historically meticulous past must beryllium nan truth. While speculative and reimagined stories of trans group are important to person (and we should support publishing them), nan lack of publishing of authentic history has further distorted nationalist cognition of trans group successful history. It creates a rhythm that continuously upholds one’s ain beliefs, subconsciously aliases otherwise.

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In “The Production of Ignorance,” a section successful Trans Like Me by CN Lester, they prosecute pinch nan quality betwixt progressive and passive lacks of knowledge:

[I]t is not conscionable nan absence of knowledge that keeps a truth from being wide known and accepted; it is besides nan progressive accumulation of ignorance that suppresses that truth….[I]t is not that trans group are ignored entirely, but that what we are taught arsenic truth tin often obscure and distort nan truth successful a measurement that moreover soundlessness could not.

In their essay, “A Future Without a Past” (originally recovered successful June 2019 astatine nan now-defunct Freeword.org.), Lester outlines this process successful 4 steps: 1) blankness (a deficiency of trans history and/or school of trans history); 2) a grounds of demolition (evidence of nan policing, arrest, murder, etc. of trans and/or gender nonconforming group themselves); 3) nan demolition of meaning (evidence that trans history has been actively and deliberately erased, suppressed, and/or misrepresented to trim nan trans personification illegible arsenic trans); and 4) nan glossing complete of modern recoveries of said histories (usually seen erstwhile gender nonconforming behaviour is automatically coded arsenic “gay,” “lesbian,” aliases successful nan lawsuit of trans masculine behavior, “women’s liberation”) without acknowledging nan truth of complexity.

Within their analysis, Lester asks a salient question:

We telephone it gaslighting erstwhile 1 personification manipulates another—manipulates nan world astir them—so arsenic to contradict agency, independence, and freedom.

What do we telephone it erstwhile nan aforesaid process plays retired connected a society-wide scale?

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I ever assumed that nan erasures and rewrites of history were thing a personification recognized aft nan fact. I didn’t recognize it was thing you could spot happening successful existent time. The warfare successful Ukraine is now Ukraine’s fault. The attempted coup connected January 6th was a time of love. There were ne'er immoderate trans group astatine nan Stonewall Uprising.

The astonishment for maine isn’t that specified attempts astatine erasure are happening, but alternatively that they look to beryllium moving connected notable swaths of people. It instantly puts maine successful mind of Snyder’s No. 1 rule: “Do not obey successful advance. Most of nan powerfulness of authoritarianism is freely given. In times for illustration these, individuals deliberation up astir what a much repressive authorities will want, and past connection themselves without being asked. A national who adapts successful this measurement is school powerfulness what it tin do.”

But successful position of trans history and existence, do modern group admit that they are obeying? Are they actively choosing to do so? Or do group genuinely not cognize immoderate amended owed to a deficiency of information, and truthful judge lies arsenic truth? Or is it, much specifically, they’re embracing willful ignorance to support their conception of reality astatine ease? “Readers won’t get connected committee pinch this,” 1 of nan publishers told me. Nothing other astir nan book mattered. It was a mobility of shaking nan cage of one’s reality, and interest astir really delicate one’s psyche whitethorn beryllium inside. Best not to chance it.

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I’m nary fool. The Lilac People has abruptly received notable attraction since January, and that attraction continues to turn arsenic nan United States continues to spiral. As grateful arsenic I americium for each nan kindness and enthusiasm and support, I besides cognize why nan attraction is happening. It’s not because my caller is simply a portion of fiction. It’s because it abruptly looks rather real.

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The Lilac People by Milo Todd is disposable from Counterpoint Press.